January 2012
68 posts
smoking a clove cigarette is a gateway drug to...
how do you make yrself feel better? all...
i want so much from life and nothing. i have breakdowns daily and build ups to more nothing. i cant keep the long term in the short term. whats the time frame anyway? i feel everything and nothing and cant reconcile the difference. there is just not enough time to do a damn thing i want to do lately. i cant see a change on the horizon, so i spent half an hour crying into aaron’s shoulder...
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Watchmoonrise kingdom. so excited! i just want wes anderson to make me a million mix tapes while i make out with jason schwartzman and bill murray.
things that shouldnt matter, but do.
i feel ugly. i feel like my best attractiveness days are behind me. this really bums me out. i never feel sexy anymore which sucks because sexy used to feel empowering to me. i know this is a flawed view, but it worked for me. what the fuck do i do now?
this has been a rough season. i feel defeated and so, so tired. i feel like if i just had a nice, dark room and a comfy bed, i could sleep through the year. i need time off, but the hustle and bustle continues. things seem so futile and happiness is brief and weird. i thrive on making future plans and sticking to my careful regiment. i wonder if things will feel normal again. and when.
